Neha, I'm so sorry for your loss. It's easy to feel alone in a time like this because it really isn't talked about enough for so many reasons. When I first lost my son, I went back and forth between wanting to talk about him all the time (just so he could exist for others as much as he existed for me) and wanting to hide (because the loss felt so dark, I was sure I'd offend others).

You are not alone. Many, many women have suffered stillbirths, as I learned in the years following my son's death. It's easier to talk about now, and while I will always feel the loss, it's much different now than it was then. You will be changed forever because of this loss, and while your son isn't in your arms, you are still his mother. My heart goes out to you, and I wish you healing in whatever way will bring you peace.

Iโ€™m all over the place, but I try to be honest in all of it. Find my books and musings at crissilangwell.com.

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